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i almost had her


i went & did something stupid
writing the way i do, insisting i’m cupid
i should of stayed in my bubble
& not say that i love you, chasing your cuddle
why don’t i stray from this trouble
removing my face, placed in your snuggle
wearing that i care, out there, without fear
without a clear, strategy or rebuttal
to grasp the gravity, on this shuttle
sky rocketing, knocking me, not to the ceiling
feeling your feelings ain’t mutual
as Musiq hums, the musings of
a sucka for love, as usual
it sucks because, you don’t feel like you use to
like fuck, wish you was here for me to seduce you
i almost had her, is what’s the matter
madam, my soul’s broken & shattered
my hands up when i wheeze
choking, cause i can’t breathe
fighting causes that matter
for my life; for my wife
who exist, yet resist, then grips her knife
burdened by, what turns her tide, till i’m queasy
& burns my sky, to pieces; she’s my Khaleesi
as her dragons sadden me ceaseless; the pain increases
abandoning, while landing in, random women
who only have sand to swim in
& don’t understand my venom’s
not for their orchard
this shit is not fair; it’s horse shit
while stepping in more shit
roses blossom, something awesome & gorgeous
MoMA moans, like Sarah Vaughn, for these fonts
drawn by my feathers
ma, even if we aren’t together
nah, forever, we are together; in the stars & my heart
or till your memory fades, like applauds
my pencil crescendos in this parade
to pay tribute, before i reach the last page
bowing on stage
& it’s fin, or the end; or when
to be continued, means that i win you
but that’s not what this is; this is
where Pearl loses interest, & closes her window

                                                  i almost had her


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