fingers crossed


 

all our faults, are all my fault 
i don't hope to die; as i cross my heart
maybe my fingers too 
& if i lie; it's cause i 
don't wanna injure you 
every inch of you 
will cringe by the time this is through
have done nothing yet; yet, yet, is motive
as this note is, a premeditated notice
my guess is, it would hurt you less if 
my confessions, weren't true 
or put into question 
often the truth is hurtful
shattering the heart & respect that earned you
couldn't fathom if there weren't you 
while gathering evidence of abandonment, that deserts you
in need of a curfew to behave 
or handcuffs, or a muffle to muzzle my leeway 
because i'm a deejay; spinning my emotions on the freeway 
crashing or coasting with passion 
into a lonesome fatal attraction 
who wants some, extremely nasty form of relaxing, like three ways 
don't ask me about, he say she say 
& don't put it past me, when she slides past me
that i'm not glancing 
& my heart ain't dancing; racing like relays 
like really; for trouble i'm asking 
cause i hear me, not trying to mask the mask i'm wearing
steering into traffic; clearly
fingers crossed, hoping through my faults
you hear me & still stay near me
putting pause, to my thoughts
clearing the walls that i'm painting with tainted paws
merely crying for help
cheering you on to help save me from myself

fingers crossed

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